June 13, 2002
A DIFFICULT TIME
From the last week in May until now things have been so difficult for me.
I am walking by faith. Still, it has not been easy.
The scheduled June 4th parole hearing was only one small part of this difficult
period. It seemed as if Satan was hitting me with everything in his arsenal. I was very depressed and utterly exhausted. I
had never been attacked like this in all my years as a Christian.
For almost two weeks I had so little energy that I barely had the strength
to go to my job assignment. I spent a lot of time lying on my bunk. Even going to the chapel for the Bible studies was a struggle.
Nevertheless, the Lord was faithful. For just this very morning I began
to get my strength back and this depression has begun to lift. This heavy oppression is now rising off me.
And also during this time I had come under persecution from someone in
the news media. But like all of Satan's devices, they only last a short season.
Meanwhile, I am continuing on with the Lord, humbled, yet learning to lean
on Him even more.
For during this difficult period the Lord has given to me more of His wonderful
grace. His strength was made perfect in my weakness. And I was truly so weak!
Thus it is as the Scripture says, God is a "very present help in trouble"
June 16, 2002
Who shall lay anything to the charge of God's Elect? It is God that justifieth.
Today is Father's Day, and for me it is a typically busy Sunday. I did
my usual in the chapel this morning, taking my spot by the entrance to greet everyone and hand out Bibles for the men who
did not bring their own.
Then this afternoon we had our Beginners Bible Class which the Chaplain
started for the new Christians. I go to assist the teacher and also help the men to locate various Scriptures. This is a challenge
to work with them as most of the inmates who attend the class have learning disabillities. But the Bible teacher and I go
slow and easy, oftentimes spending half an hour on one verse.
In any event, today I received my own encouragement from the Lord as He
took me to Romans chapter 8.
For even after all my years as a Christian, I still need to be reminded
that no one can accuse me of anything concerning my past. All my sins and crimes are "under the Blood of Christ". I have been
completely forgiven. In God's eyes my sins no longer exist.
As far as the Lord is concerned, no one has any valid charge to bring against
me. Thus anytime a person, be they with the news media, the general public or even with the parole board, tries to bring up
my past in an accusatory manner, in God's eyes they really have no genuine standing to lay their charges on me.
His unchanging and ultimate words stand for all eternity, "Not Guilty!"
This is a Biblical truth.
June 22, 2002
I ALMOST SLIPPED
I am still coming out of this latest period of heavy spiritual warfare.
Nevertheless, the Lord has been slowly re-strenghtening me.
However, as a result of this time of personal struggle, I have learned
some deeper spiritual truths. Now I know what the psalmist, Asaph, meant in Psalm 73 when he said that as he observed the
prosperous and carefree lives of the wicked, that his feet almost slipped. Asaph almost lost his faith in God.
For in his mortal mind he began to think that somehow God was unjust and
that those who did not love the Lord were doing better than God's own children.
It is easy to think this way at times. I've been going through one struggle
after another. Lately I have grown weary of these battles. I've been feeling weak and rundown.
Like Asaph, I too see worldly-minded people who do not love God. They seem
to get one blessing after another. Their lives seem to be pain free.
But as the Lord showed the writer of this 73rd Psalm, the successes and
pleasures these people are now experiencing will not last forever. Like everyone else they will have to leave this world one
day. And they will not be prepared to meet the Lord at the great judgment.
Thus through all my struggles, I have been assured that God does love me.
The prosperity of the ungodly is only for a season. But those who love the Lord shall live with Him forever. We shall shine
as the brightness of the sun.
June 25, 2002
SEPTEMBER 11TH AFTERMATH
In the days, weeks and months after the September 11, 2001 terrorist attacks
upon the United States of America, so many people were running into churches and going to prayer vigils. People from all walks
of life were joining together to sing "God Bless Ameirca".
But with the passing of time, it is obvious that these things did not last.
Everything pretty much seems to be back to the way it was. The number of churches that were packed to overflowing have dwindled
in attendance, and the daily prayer vigils have stopped.
However, at the same time, the government has made tremendous inroads at
setting up a national identity system, with increased monitoring of the public, and at the great loss of many personal freedoms
that will be forfeited with such a thing. And most of the public seems to want this.
Meanwhile I have seen a tremendous increase of anti-Semitism both in America
and overseans. There is an ever growing hatred towords Jews.
Plus there is an increasing unification of many religious faiths, all joining
hands for "world peace", as the gospel of Jesus Christ gets watered down. Deception is everywhere.
So, overall, the changes in the world since 9/11 have not been good. We're
closer to a worldwide persecution of Jewish people as well as born-again Christians
We're fast becoming an electronically monitored society. And as the Bible
warns, there will be a World Government that will one day come forth as well as a treacherous One World Religion for the masses.
May God cause many to search the Scriptures at such a time as this. For
the final stage is being set for Bible prophesy to be fulfilled.